Failing Badley

I don’t know what’s wrong with me!
My pursuits of wanting to become a better actress and moving to L.A seem to be getting further and further away from me. Every night I go to bed hating myself for not doing anything productive or spending too much money and everyday I spend too much money, eat shitty and do nothing to help my dreams come true I’m failing myself in a bad way and it’s not ok I feel terrible I don’t how to become better. Help me all you extremely motivated people